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Life is like a dice, how you roll it to get a "6".. how you will have to calculate every possibilities and combination. Our life are based on the hard work and effort that we put in it. But as I mentioned earlier, it also involves every possibilities (ups and downs, good or bad) and combination (the ways of how to achieve those goals and targets or the easiest way to put it is the trials and errors that we have to go through). Yups, life is all about trials and errors. But it all depends on the individual's choice whether u want to play safe or u want to be more daring/ brave to go through every turmoils.

My life as an entertainer started 13 years ago and I must say that I am still not yet satisfied of where I have lead my life to. I must admit that progress are slow, but I do not resent the good and the bad times as it has made me more mature dealing with the politics of life.

I was browsing through my digital photo collections and sighed browsing through it. 13 years of being in the industry and I have not yet reached my targets. 5 years being a radio host, 13 years being a tv host, 7 years being an mc, 7 years as an actor, 6 years being a script writer, 6 years of being an entreprenuer and 2 years of being a recording artist..I still feel that I lack in many aspects. Nevertheless, I am grateful of these experiences even though i have not achieved much yet.

I keep on pondering on the many ways and possibilities of achieving a higher degree of success. People keep on telling me that it is all politics, but I do not believe so. Achievements are more on the continuous efforts of developing one self to a certain extent where nobody has ever achieved it. That's what I believed in. After all these years, I thought it would be hard for me to blend into the society and be accepted. But thanks to the listeners and viewers, they proved me wrong.

Being a part of the entertainment world has always been my deepest passion. My mind flows of artsy stuffs, my feet stomps and my heart beats the beat of the music, my voice hums the melodies of the songs, my hands that craft the designs of art..huh..i dont know..I just seriously feel like I have a barrier that's slowing me down which I do not wish to. Even at certain times, all these ideas that rushed to me makes me feel like I am about to explode! I keep on telling myself that I wish that I can do more as I feel that what I have done so far is not enough. I have another year to go to achieve and do as much as I can to improve certain areas of the entertainment world as what I have strategically planned 5 years ago. Man..I wish things could be easier..but it always involves politic.

Nevertheless..I still do not resent what I have gone through.

Oh yeah..I used to be quite cynical when it comes to the ideas of fans and supporters though as I keep on thinking that who am I to have such status. Yeah..I do at times have that feelings of underestimating myself thinking I am not as good as others. But one of my good friends always remind me saying- we cant make everyone to like us, every individual is unique and it will be boring n dull to be the same as the other. I am forever grateful to that friend for pulling me out from misery. With the creation of social networks and with the amazing response from the members of the public..now I strongly and truly believe that fans and supporters do exist. Thank you for your endless support=)

will continue this next time...